How I learnt Teaching!

As I had group study sessions with my friends during my masters, I realized how much I enjoy teaching and decided that is what I want to be. The voice of my career counselor I had met back in Class 10, echoed in my mind, how do you plan to choose this path if you say you have stage fear? I said to myself I will figure it out. I had been on stage multiple times since then, sometime anchored an event well, but on bad days I froze mid-sentence. I thought, if I just put myself out there, I will eventually get used to it. With this mindset I entered teaching, and boy was it tough, lesson plans never went I had imagined them to be. Needless to say, few months down the line, students were asked for feedback and it was just horrifying. Thankfully, my colleagues and the Head of the Department knew it is difficult for some in the beginning, and they told me to not let it get into the head, but also see how I can improve.

I kept thinking all night and the only different thing that stood out was I wasn’t being myself in class. I tried being all the teachers I looked up to, I tried being by other teachers around me who were really good at what they did. I decided that I need to stop trying so hard, and just be me, and teach as I would teach my friends. Maybe the students would never look up to me as a teacher, maybe I would seem a little extra, but I knew that was my only course of action.

Slowly and steadily my stage fear almost never returned. I could teach in those uncomfortable salwar kameezes all I had to do was be myself. Eventually I got the hang of it. My highest moment was speaking in front of around 200 students, hosting an event, with the strap of my heeled scandals being broken. It didn’t even matter, it just felt exhilarating. 

I still get to explore elements of teaching in my job profile, but I miss public speaking so much, hopefully I will get to do it someday.

BEST

‘Best’ is overrated.

There, I said it! Maybe most of you won’t agree with me, but hear me out!

Achieving ‘the best’ is impossible and believing you have achieved the best is restrictive. It reflects a fixed mindset and doesn’t leave any space for improvement or growth. It makes a person stagnant. I think people should try to be better than what they were and happy with where they are, but should fully understand that there’s always more to learn, adapt or experience. This also brings a sense of humility 😊

What do you prefer, being the best, or being better?

Daughter’s third birthday!

I was looking for quotes to letter for my daughter’s birthday and I got many, be kind, be good, have courage, break barriers, aim high …I drew the sketch and I lettered one of the quote and it just didn’t sit right with me… This song kept playing in my head and I knew this is what my conscience wants to tell my daughter, and more importantly, remind me.

Most days I’m telling her, do this, don’t do this, don’t go there, eat this, do that, and on her third birthday I want to emphasise that it’s okay to take a break and just sit and look at the stars and marvel at the moon, to hold small moments as these closer to the heart and to make them count!

I want to tell her, I love when she squeals with joy when she sees a full moon from the window, I love when we sit at the window looking at the stars, singing Twinkle Twinkle, these are the moments that matter 💖

Yes, it is important to have a purpose and work towards it, but it is also important to remind yourself to Just Breathe. 💖💖

The Quarantine Life

Have you ever felt that discomfort when a piece of furniture is moved about and that too without your knowledge or choice. That is how it felt for me, when 5 months back the lockdown started. Everything felt very restricting, disorganised. Suddenly I was a mother, a wife, an employee, a friend, a playdate, an entertainer all at once. The feeling resonated with the one I had post-partum. “This is all a lot, I don’t know if I can get through this?”

People were having a good time in the lockdown, being productive, and I couldn’t make ends meet with my never ending list of to-dos and the inherent lack of sleep. Fortunately, with a strong support system in friends and family, I coursed through the roughest patch. After the overwhelming feelings subsided, and I realised the only way out is through, I resolved I need to take out time and do things that make me feel good.

I made a priority list, and surprisingly, scrolling endlessly on Instagram was quite at the bottom much to my dislike. Yes, it is not easy, FOMO does hit, but for now, I’ve given up on it. This helped me put the disorganized tid-bits into boxes. It cleared the clutter and made space for me do things. Once the corner was cleared all I had to do was to pursue things I love doing sitting in that corner. I did some slow-motion multitasking and now I’ve found my flow.

The city has almost reopened, and I’ve eventually found the cosiest time of my life in this year 2020. I’m glad that furniture was moved, I’m glad it didn’t came all to me easily, I’m more than glad to be where I am!

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Hopefully I get to be here for a little while longer!

Songs that remind you of rain!

Rain in Mumbai is associated with a beautiful feeling very difficult to put in words.

We hate the problems it brings with it, but we still can’t ever say we hate the rain.

We will smile a small smile, put a status update, click exotic pictures the moment there’s an unexpected or a very much expected shower.

We Mumbaikars go to the extend of planning a trip nearby just to thoroughly get wet and enjoy the bliss pouring from the sky.

As far as I am concerned, the onset of monsoon relates to one word for me: Love!

No kidding, I act like someone just in love when it rains. Everything seems bright and happy for me. I actually hop, skip and jump under my umbrella, even if I’m just walking to my office. No exaggeration, honestly!

Even though I had fallen in love during December-February. I remember the feeling had felt just like the onset of monsoon 🙂

The feeling is much more than mere bliss. It is something that can’t be put in words, but many artists have successfully put it in music!

The song that comes to my mind when you say rain is

Leaves in the River- Sea Wolf

The song is simplicity personified. Maybe this is the song I most relate with rain is because it is kinda on ‘falling in love.’ The simple tune throughout the song complemented by the pitter-patter of rain in background stirs those feelings in me and makes me visualise a beautiful beautiful rain!

There’s a thing about first love and monsoon that Bollywood almost always captures best. There were many competitors for this post, but I’ve zeroed down to:

Nahin Samne – Taal

The rain at the beginning, Akshaye Khanna going nuts and enjoying the rain, is so relatable. Then the song slowly takes you over with the consistent beats, melodious tune and beautiful meaningful lyrics. There are moments when it rains and I unknowingly start humming it’s tune, out of nowhere. It is one of those songs that never get old.

Another song that reminds me rain and falling in love combined is more of a tune than a song.

It’s the most unrealistically beautiful way of portraying ‘love at first sight.’ (took me years to figure out that it is unrealistic :P)

Rehna Hai Tere Dil Main

My last suggestion is a song that did not remind of rain originally. But then, I saw this particular performance by the band. You have to watch this video to know what I’m talking about.

Goo Goo Dolls is not my favourite band, but this performance has blown me away. Imagine the conditions of heavy rain, blowing winds and the band still performs. The audience still enjoys in the downpour. Needless to say, the sound of rain in the background has added so much to the song, which makes it even better than the original song.

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I had also asked a few people for their suggestions. I’ve selected one from each language as my favourites.

English:

My words won’t ever do justice to this song. Right from the sound of thunder in the melodious intro, the wispy tunes through the song, the amazing solo by Slash, or the strong vocals by Axl. GnR takes you on a walk through the song. It’s one of the longest song, I can never ever get tired of!!

Guns N’ Roses – November Rain

Hindi:

Following the longest song, this is one of the few short songs. It starts with melodious tune that reminds me of l the start of the pitter-patter of the rain. Then slowly the tempo increases, just like rain, it results into a thunderous shower by the end of it. That coupled by simple meaningful lyrics, makes it one of the best songs.

Boondon ke moti – IKTARA

Marathi:

This song resonates with the feeling of ‘falling in love’. The delicate tune, coupled with the intricate lyrics and a humble melodious voice relates to the soft-beautiful feeling the rain brings with it.

Kadhi Tu – Mumbai Pune Mumbai

 

Where have the colours gone?

So if you’ve been following me, or my blog, you would know I had started ‘a suggest a song – music’ column for fellow music lovers.

My first theme was about songs with the word ‘Summer’ in the title. You can read it here.

Next, I was looking for songs with a colour in the title. I asked people for their suggestions, had my list ready…

But, where did the colours go?

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I made a list of the suggestions, but never a full-fledged post about it. There’s still the post lying half-done in my drafts.

Sometimes, I really didn’t find the time. Sometimes, I honestly, just procrastinated.

Procrastination, you know that uneasy feeling when you know you should be doing something, but conveniently overlook it and do something unproductive. You also make up silly excuses in your mind to pacify yourself. But deep down, even you know it’s just an excuse.

I was hit with some good new theme-ideas but felt ashamed to go ahead with it.

That went wrong!

Not only did it make me feel bad about myself, it also made me doubt myself. It made me feel lost, uninspired.

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It made me give up, but I won’t.

I didn’t post about songs with the colour in its title, but it’s not the end. Hopefully, someday I will get to it and finish it off. But I won’t let that stop me. I decide to stand up and take my lack of time and/or procrastination in my stride.

I stumbled, a small tumble. But I will walk past it. And do what I can think of next. And maybe get back to finishing what I had started halfway, later.

Maybe it’s the right way, maybe it is not, but I’m done beating myself about it.

I know many of my friends who have different hobbies apart from their mainstream jobs. Maybe you too, like me have something in mind and haven’t moved further because you want to finish that first. I would say, walk past, do something else if that is catching your interest right now or whatever is creating a spark in you right now.

That spark, that’s all that matters really.

So a big, energetic, sparky, bro-fist to all my friends who started blogging, sketching, dancing, cooking, crafting etc to encouraging them to pursue their hobby.

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Yes, life weighs you down, responsibilities weigh you down.

Believe me, doing what you love will take most of the weight off and doing it consistently will make you better at it! Life is too short to wait for the ‘right time’ or the ‘next time.’

Now is the time! Good luck!

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Songs with the word ‘SUMMER’ in it!

Just a few days back, the rain made a sneak-peak! It’s gone somewhere again, but, it’s still out there, lurking around waiting for the right time, or maybe the wrong one to make a comeback!

In either case, we are just happy that we are done getting roasted outdoors for at least a couple months now.

As an adios to the scorching summer, I thought of listing down songs which have the word summer in it.

As my friend once said, the westerners are on-and-on about the summers. So, it was easy to find a few songs. Apart from that I also asked few of my friends to suggest. This helped in having a more comprehensive list. Many people got back to me with their cool suggestions. I’ve made a list of almost all of them.

Hope you guys enjoy it, I’ve also listed my favourites.

My suggestions:

Summertime Rocks – Smoke Signals

This is my most favourite amongst the ‘Summer collection.’

Summer Wind – Frank Sinatra

Sit back and drift into the old-times and let this song make your heart swing and lips smile 🙂

Was that too old-school for you? Maybe, you will like the next one.

Summertime Sadness – Lana Del Rey

This one truly gets you grooving!

How did you like my suggestions?

Yes, there are so many many others! Following are the songs suggested to me by many of my friends and acquaintances.

Out of the ones suggested my most favourite was the following one:

In the Summertime – Mungo Jerry

I could dance to this through the day or night, through the summer, the monsoon or the winter!

This one sure took a place in my heart!

Summertime – Willie Nelson

The most suggested song was :

Summer of 69 – Bryan Adams

Go, check it out for some much needed nostalgic dose. Weren’t those the best days of our life?

Other suggested songs were:

Summer – Calvin Harris

This summer is gonna hurt – Maroon V

Cool for the Summer – Demi Lovato

Summer overture – Clint Mansell

Have a ‘Summer-y’ time!

Let me know which one of these is your favourite. Or, if you have another song to suggest, that is missed here, do let me know!

 

Are you getting old? Everyone is!

So, today I let an older man take a seat in the metro. He offered it back to me. I rejected with disbelief, with the usual expression of ‘how could I’ -tone.

He was an elderly person with a head full of white hair. However, very fit and surely didn’t look like a senior citizen.

I wonder how he must’ve felt. Maybe, the same as I feel when a 14-18-year-old calls me a “Kaku” (aunty)! At times, we forget that we are ageing. We forget that an 18year old is someone who was just born in 2000!

Yes, 2000! I mean wasn’t I there just yesterday inviting the new millennium!

Well, from a glass half full perspective, I guess this also means that we feel so young at heart, that we can’t believe 18 years have passed. Lol!

I guess 18 years down the line my daughter would be like, wow! 18 years just flew by, I feel like I was born yesterday! Well, only time will tell!

Have any of you had such a moment? Does it have a name? Shall we give it one?

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Hello November!

It is that time of the year again!

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This month always puts into motion something for my upcoming year. I wonder what it will be this year! Even if it doesn’t it is the start of a pleasant climate in Mumbai, my birthday, my best friend’s wedding, her birthday and the 3rd-month birthday of my dear daughter, Sarah!

These are reasons enough to celebrate! It is the little things in life, the memories, our people, the good times, that make life worthwhile. These little things can be missed if you blink, so be careful and cherish every minute of it! 🙂

I plan to make a note of these little things of my life on my blog. Hope I write regularly and you have a good time reading these experiences!

Till then, adios, make every little thing count! 🙂